BAAAMM!!!
And just like the previous 23 Frictional Blog posts, we
kick off with a bang. Booya! Well, happy new year everybody, and welcome to the
4th (that's "fourth", for those of you who, for reasons uncertain,
couldn't read numbers or whatnot) annual "Thank You" edition of the Frictional
Blog baby! As a side note, if you will, this is my 24th Frictional
Blog and, overall, my 41st post. Just saying. Now, take your
boarding pass and come and join me as we take a ride through ten entities whose
support and help I'm most thankful for this year. Shall we? [Author's Note: I'm not good at writing speeches, let alone a "Thank You" list, so bear with me...]
#1 – Allah swt (God). Self-explanatory, but
nonetheless, I'm super thankful for all my many
blessings, strengths, and for all the weaknesses You gave me not only in 2013,
but throughout my whole life, which motivated and are still motivating me to
grow and better myself. For another year worth of oxygen that kept the spark of
my life glowing. Seriously, there's so much that You have given me for over the
past 20 years that I couldn't finish typing this sentence without having all
these small drops of tears hanging by the corner of my eyes. I could never
thank and love you enough, but for all these reasons and a whole lot more, I
thank You, and I love You.
#2 – My family. My mother, my father, my big brother, my late sister, my uncles, aunts,
cousins (an extra "thank you" for Lisha, Bob and Haikal for making my 2013
Aidilfitri the best one ever… so far) and any and every single one of my family
members. It's not cool to be alone, and you guys prevented loneliness from
illuminating me, and for that I thank you all.
#3 – My lecturers. And the list keeps on growing. Hahaha. There are too
many names to be listed, and quite frankly, most I'm unable to recount at the
moment, therefore I decided to just mention them by the subjects they were/are
teaching me. I'd like to amount bunches of gratitude, and then some, to those
who have been teaching and lecturing me throughout 2013 on Calculus, Linear
Algebra, Statistics, Operational Research, Numerical Method, Basic Economics,
Insurance and Takaful, Self-Development and two subjects that I beg and pray to
God to never have to take again (hahaha. But seriously, please God), Human and
Nature, and Asian and Islamic Civilizations. Also for all the teachers and
lecturers who have been helping me since I was a seven-year-old newbie, I
sincerely thank you for contributing in my development. Without all of you, I'd
definitely not be one of, if not, the best in the world at what I do. But then
again, what do I do?
#4 – My friends. Dropping each and
every single one of your names here would take a lifetime and a half, if I decide to do so. So I won't. Hahaha. But that's the truth. I have a lot of friends,
and this year I've made (and lost, but this is a "Thank You" list, so that's
another topic for another blog post) a whole lot more to the bunch, and each of
you have been playing a massive role in my 2013. So yeah, thank you. I love
each and every single one of you. I'm just writing random words right now,
because this passage looked too short and you guys probably won't think it's
fair. There. Long enough, I guess. Hahaha. Hey, thanks again!
#5 – Vince McMahon and the WWE. I've been watching since I was three, and now it
seems impossible to pull myself away from your product. So I thank you for not
making me regret my decision to stick and stand up with your company. Thanks to
Daniel Bryan (Bryan Danielson) for providing me with some of my favourite
moments of 2013, including his matches that are always superb, his ridiculously
funny skits with Kane (and Dr. Shelby!) as Team Hell No and of course, his WWE
Championship victories, among many more. So talented. Very entertaining. I wish
I can be half the man that he is (I guess I’ll have to wait until I grow my
beard first), and he is a living proof that hard work and dedication can be
ridiculously rewarding. Thanks to CM Punk (Phillip Brooks) for your exciting
matches and for being an awesome straight edge role model. I mean, this guy cracked
his skull and still refused to use any form of drugs. I'm not that strong, but
I wish I could be, and he keeps on pushing me to be. Thanks to AJ Lee (April
Mendez) for, well, being AJ Lee. Hahaha. For personifying the second W and the
E in the WWE Divas division. The only reason for me to watch a Divas
segment/bout. Also thanks to Antonio Cesaro, all three members of The Shield, Big
E Langston, Cody Rhodes, Goldust (the comeback kid! He still got it), Dolph
Ziggler, Wade "Bad News" Barrett, William Regal (he sent me best wishes on my
20th birthday!), Sami Zayn, Paige, Emma and the rest of the roster,
staffs and crews. I'll always stand up for and with the WWE.
#6 – Paramore. Hayley Nichole Williams,
Jeremy Clayton Davis and Taylor Benjamin York, for providing me (for being,
actually) an escape route from reality. And for that awesome concert earlier
this year! I will never forget that moment when my #1 celebrity crush EVER
pointed her finger towards me, smiled, chuckled and beautifully stood (not really. She was jumping and hopping
and headbanging and rolling and lying and so much more) in front of me. Jeremy did,
too, I remember! Taylor was at the other side of the stage, so we didn't
interact much. Happy belated birthday to Hayley! She turned 25 on the past 27. Oh,
congratulations Jeremy for both your marriage and your baby girl. We're having
a Parababy! I love you guys. Thanks a lot. You constantly push me forward
whenever I'm stationary. I can never ever repay you. I forever am grateful for
you. And after all this time, I'm still into you guys. (honorable mentions: the
Farro brothers, Josh and Zac. Once you're in the Parafamily, you'll never
leave)
#7 – Hani, Razik and Azra. Why? Just because. Hahaha.
Nahh. This could be long, so be ready.
First
of all, thank you guys for being really nice, kind, polite, respectful and
every other adjective that can possibly be used to describe how you guys have
been toward me. Which is what I've been saying to you guys ever since I started
helping you guys out. Hahaha. Now, I'd like to share a secret with all you
readers. Yes, I'm not fond to the idea of sharing my life secrets to everyone
but my closest friends and family members, but then again, that's the exact reason I
created this blog.
Well,
long time readers (which are non-existent, by the way) should know that I have
been in only one relationship in my whole life with she-who-shall-not-be-named
(maybe I should refer to her as Lord Voldermort or Chris Benoit hereafter, eh?
Ah screw it, her name is Siti Zuliana), and I have been totally devastated
following my break-up with her. Ughh. But I'm okay now, thanks to my best
friend who has loosened up all the knots that were tying me to the bottom of the
blackest hole I've been in. Yet no matter how far I'd risen above the worst
moment of my life, there's still a feeling that has long been lost from me. I
lost my urge to teach. I had even promised my mother to never teach anyone
again. Why? Simply put, she committed one of the worst ungrateful acts I have
ever been put under, but that's another story for another day. This is a "Thank
You" post, not a "Hate is a strong word but I really don't like you" session.
See,
the thing is, I never really put 100% on teaching my friends ever since post-SPM.
Nope, not even 50%. The reason? The exact same reason as to why I felt
reluctant in claiming the profession "lecturer" or "teacher" as my main goal, my ambition in
life. I don't want to create a whole new generation of ingrates. I can't afford it. My urge to teach was killed by the ungratefulness of a person who I deemed
to be the closest to me. I chose helping myself instead of helping others. Then
I met you guys.
My
biggest problem in life is that regardless of the fact that some people
couldn't care less about me, I care too much about them. I never thought it
would be a blessing in disguise. Our juniors were giving Zafree a hard time
(Zafree won't admit it, but oh yes they were), so I decided to relief him by
offering my help in C++ to the juniors. I remember one day, I randomly asked
Razik about his studies and he said he had some problems understanding C++. I
just couldn't help but to offer my help (look at the overusage of the word
"help" in this sentence. Hahaha. Oh wait, you're not laughing. Am I the only one laughing?). So I invited him to the PTSL, and he invited
Hani along. And I went on to teach them a thing or two. I don't know why, but
their personalities made me somehow attracted to teach them more and more.
Their kindness. The respect they showed me. All the "sorry"s and "thank you"s.
Their courteousness is ridiculous. It's somewhat addictive.
Now instead of them wanting to ask for my help, it is I who am eagerly looking for any
chance to teach them again. The same feeling that I used to feel when my mother
was giving tuition to my friends back when I was young. The same feeling that I
was feeling when I told my Form 2 and 3 friends to never be lazy and do well in
their exams (I also told them to leave all the bad things for me. Hahaha. Worst
role model ever). The same feeling that I lost some time before I got my SPM
results. I have once again found my urge to help others in their education. And
by God, I'm telling you, it just feels so good. No blasphemy intended.
So yeah, I thank all of you
for allowing me to help you. I cherish those times very dearly, and I cherish
your existences just as dearly as those times. I love you guys so much. I love
you all like you're a huge part of my family. I love you guys much more than I can tell how much I love you. I'm sorry for every single solitary
one of my wrongdoings. I may have taught you guys a tad tiny little bit
on C++, but you guys have indirectly taught me a lot more on life, and for that
I thank you all. I had a lot of fun and felt very comfortable being around you
guys and being able to somewhat help you guys. Go achieve your dreams, because
I know for a given fact that you guys can. Here's
to an awesome friendship.
#8 – Zafree and Faris. Or Zapzapus and
Farisuk, as I like to call them. For being my best friends in the UKM. These
guys know me like I'm the back of their respective hands. They understand me.
And nobody in the UKM understands me. Nobody but them. They have been guiding
me throughout the year and I could never repay them, ever. It's ridiculous. I
don't really know what to say about them, but if I am to say anything about
them, it would all be kind and nice, because that's how they have been toward
me. They are crazy – CRAZY! They pushed me like no one does – they made me want
to be as good as, or better than them – yet at the same time we played games,
ate and basically wasted our times together. Faris is a great guy who I can
talk to at any time and feel better, although I may not agree with most of the
solutions he suggested. Zafree, on the other hand, is a gamer. Hahaha. Video
games are to Zafree what pro wrestling is to me. And he taught me a lot about
games. And he taught me a huge lesson in life, which is to chase what I'm
interested in. He's really good in maths (not taking anything away from Faris),
and I'd sit next to him in the very front row of the lecture hall every time
just because a) I could correct every single mistake he made then and there and
feel very accomplished in my life (hahaha), and b) I feel more motivated to learn
things and gather knowledge with him by my side. But then again, he'd probably
be uninterested with what's happening at the front and focus more on his mobile
phones and 3DSes. Hahaha. They are arguably (but I won't argue. Oh hell no) my
two best coursemates. I'm jealous. Hoorah? These two are my closest friends
over here. We are like the Bermuda triangle – we're unapproachable. Well not
really, but that is a really cool simile, so I decided to use it anyways. I
love you guys like two irremovable pieces of Velcro – no homo.
#9 – My best friend ever. Nisa! She's my personal
Facebook wall - my personal counselling centre. She's the truest, purest
personification of a friend. Back in KMNS, she ridiculously flipped my life
upside down, and I am forever grateful for that. I may never be able to thank
her enough. Even if I help her nonstop for 100 straight years, I may never be
able to help her as much as she helped me throughout our friendship, regardless
of the number of English words I translated for her in 2013. Hahaha. Truth be
told, I have recently reached the greatest level of laziness I've ever been on.
All sorts of fear randomly popped in my bodily being. Yes, I talked to Faris
and Zafree and they helped me in controlling my anger towards myself. Then all
of a sudden she sent me one of the most motivating texts I have ever read. I'd
type it here, but then I'd have to translate that text, and although time is
all I have and I have all of the time in the world and a half, I don't really
have time to do it. Truth be told, you are 100 times a better human being than I
could ever be, so I thank you so much for even considering being a friend of
mine. I may not be your best friend, but you certainly are mine. I will forever
and always love you as the best friend I ever had, and the sister I never. I
wish the best for you and your future endeavours. So yeah, thank you so much. Looking
forward to see you and the whole S1CP7 again, hopefully real soon.
#10 – Me! Always saving the best for the last,
eh? Hahaha. Thank you for being good to yourself.
For not drinking Pepsi for... wait for it... 15 STRAIGHT MONTHS BAYBEE
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!!! For not trying cigarettes, alcohols or any of those weird
shiznits. I'm gonna be straight edge for my whole life! For being myself,
standing on my two feet. Despite all the challenges thrown against me. Despite
all the backstabbing and facecrushing moments throughout the year. Despite
almost losing the ability to stand and walk when I was 7, and a whole lot other
times thereafter. Despite being loved and hated for all my life. Yup, as
always, I copied my last year's self-dedicated "thank you" wish. It's
my blog, so deal with it. Hahaha.
And on that note, we've
reached the end of my 2013 gratitude board! Hope to write (type) to you guys
again real soon and more often. Sorry if this post doesn't meet your
expectations. You know what? I think I'm not sorry at all. Yup, I'll do it all
over again next year. *insert a smiley here* Thanks for reading! I love you guys with all my heart! Until next time. Make sure you'll be there.
All of the Glory be to Allah swt.
Faith. Follow that.
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